Returning to my Life force

When was the last time you felt vibrant, energised, full of life? Me? I lived years without ever coming within reach of that feeling. I thought it was normal, that’s just how it is, we can’t all be swept up in a whirlwind of delight and excitement all the time can we? Well perhaps not but we could all have a hell of a lot more of it than we’re getting right now.

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Caught up as we can get in rigid roles within our jobs, households, families and social circles, time for play is rarely a priority, sometimes it leaves the agenda all together, and it’s the energy of play, of delight, joy and pleasure that connects us to our lifeforce. At one time in my life I had abandoned the urge to play entirely, living as a single parent, the practical concerns far outweighed my need for joy, has this ever happened to you?

In the midst of this struggle I rediscovered my own lifeforce quite by accident when doing some work with a practitioner that involved reconnecting with my body. This is work that I now do with my clients all the time. For me it involved reclaiming my body for myself. An early bad relationship had led me to the subconscious belief that my body belonged to whoever I was in a relationship with at the time. In dismantling that belief, in reuniting with my body, I reconnected with so much more. I expected the effects of this work to be limited to feeling a greater sense of autonomy within myself, moving away from being dependent on others for pleasure. Although this seemed like no small thing at the time, what I got reached so far beyond.

It’s difficult to describe the feeling of returning to lifeforce but I’m going to give it a try. I felt high on life, awakened to a new way of being, I had more confidence in my work, found more joy in parenting and in all of my connections, I felt lighter and everything I did felt easier. If you’ve ever been in a flow state this might sound familiar, it’s the same sort of thing but this lasted much longer. Friends started to notice the change in me and wondered what had happened.

But for me reconnecting with my lifeforce hasn’t solely been about the good times, we can also live from our lifeforce even when things aren’t perfect by allowing space for our feelings to be felt. Even in the depths of grief or sadness it’s possible to still be connected to lifeforce by staying present with yourself, accepting how you feel and resisting the urge to change or control your experience. Easier said than done but a bit of tapping can go a long way.

The more I spent time in this energy of lifeforce, the more familiar I became with the many different ways I have of connecting to it. Music, food, embracing my sexuality and meditation are all routes into that feeling for me but at the core of all of it is total self love, an utter acceptance of all parts of me. This is not always easy to achieve, it takes dedication and practice, it’s something that’s taken me years to reach and it remains a practice for me now, rather than something that just happens by itself. Self love is something I often work on with my clients and it can begin with even acknowledging that you’re worthy and deserving of your own love.

Most of us are conditioned out of self love in some way when we’re little but the fact is that we are worthy and deserving of it and that this work is worth doing, not only does it improve your own life, sometimes beyond recognition but it makes the whole world a better place.

If you’d like to reconnect with that feeling of lifeforce, this week’s video is a great place to begin https://www.youtube.com/@healingwomanhood

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